People are bound to crave for more even it it’s already enough. It is natural for people to dream big, to get more. Wanting so much leads someone to do things out of their ways. Some live in a fantastical dream, in a world that everything is within their reach. They don’t acknowledge reality, the real world they live in.

Not being contented is always a dilemma. Doing extreme things to get hold of their wants have many consequences. Some will not do someone good. It will bring chaos in an ordered life. Why does it have to be that way? Why can’t we leave the things that are not ours alone? It is not wrong to dream for something we want but we have to keep it real. Think a thousand times before acting. Is it essential? Is it worth the risk? Is it something you can’t live without?

Getting more could also mean being less.

Another thing—The most liberated being in this world is an honest man. It has always been that way. The truth will set you free, as they say. What is there to hide? Keeping things to ourselves make people live in a place that they think they don’t belong to. Are you happy when you have secrets? It’ll make you depressed. It’ll make you afraid. So what if other people won’t understand? At least you know in yourself you’ve done your part. Someone out there will appreciate your honesty. It won’t only be you who will feel free but also the people who surround you.

unanswered

There's this one question that you ask yourself everyday.
Maybe at the moment when you wake up, or in the middle of the day doing nothing, or while washing the dishes.
There's this one question you keep on asking to yourself and you have no answer to it, or anyone else.

Mine was:  WHEN WILL I EVER BECOME HAPPY?

And I still have no answer.

But I keep on wishing that I will be.

And I know I will be.

there's this one thing i want to do. i want to have a picture, standing on the edge of a cliff. sunset. silhouette.

Fairness and Equality

Do such ideas exist?

If yes, how would you explain that rich people in decent clothes could go to society parties while beggars can’t?

How would you explain the well-off families can get away from being guilty while poor ones were being put behind the bars even if they’re innocent?

Do you say it is money war?

Where people will get their way because of their money and those who don’t have need to beg for respect?

So that’s it? Money vs. Trash?

Where’s the fairness there?

Why can’t be the prostitutes be equally respected as the owners of famous establishments?

Life is unfair. Who said it is otherwise?

But don’t blame everything to life. The choices you made will make you successful or miserable.

If you’re penniless now, it doesn’t mean you will be the same tomorrow. Likewise, if you’re rich today it doesn’t follow that the next day you will be as powerful as yesterday.

Fairness? Equality? It’s up to you to earn it.

love is a choice not destiny

That is my love mantra for a long time now. I really don't believe in destiny. But there are times that things are proving me wrong. I know we make our destiny but I don't know what I will call to the things that happen just because.

I have been keeping something from everyone and I think from myself also. I just don't want to curse this thing. I don't know if it will produce something great. Fingers crossed, I just want this to be okay and not so complicated. I still can't say it out loud, or write in this blog, but I wish it is something worth waiting for.

I'm choosing now. And I don't know if it's right. It's the risk I got to take.

it's hard when you're twenty

I have a barkada. It’s called G4 or GO! GO! Galaxy Girls. Weird huh? Funny. It was conceived, if I recall it right, on August 18, 2005. It was Meteor Garden mania then and we have crushes in our room and we associate them with the F4. Meteor=Galaxy. Gets? Whatever. Basta, we’re the G4. We have this theme song pa nga written by Lea and Tin-an. It was done when we’re already First Year College. 

In high school, we’re inseparable. We do things together—eat, laugh, cry, fall in love (or infatuation, hehe), and everything you could think of. but of course problems are inevitable. we fought then forgave each other.

But college came. We are going the separate ways. I’m in BA, Tin-an and Lea took up Nursing, Em took up Architecture, while Erika took up IT, and the saddest of all, Sheena had to study in Manila for scholarship purposes. See, we have different courses, different schedules, and we met different friends. But we never gave up on our friendship. Sure, one could spend time with the other some time, but it’s rare and hard for us to have a grand reunion. Only in special occasion you will see us all together. 

And it became harder when each one of them had found their special someone. And it pained me when I’ve realized I am the only one who’s alone. 

I miss my girls. I miss hanging out with them. I don’t take it against them for finding their “someone”. I am happy for them. But it’s hard to be with them only nowadays. They always bring the boys with them. ): Now, Rik and I are the loveless in the group. And I’m desperately wanting to be with the other girls. Only them. 

But that’s hard. It seems impossible. I don’t know. 

But I’m not giving up. We have so many plans. Now that we’re in the next stage of our lives, we have to hold on and have faith on each other. I love my girls. And I will die loving them. And I know for sure we will be for each other for the next stages of our lives. We will be bridesmaids in each other’s wedding. We will be godmothers to each other’s children. 

I love my G4 so much. (: