This is it. The moment I’ve been waiting. It’s also the time that I’ve been dreading to come. I’ve waited for this because I’m already trapped in my past. I’m dreading it because I still hope that we can be “us”.
But all the same, we’re over. It started when i texted him:
John nicole. Balu ku mimwa ka. Hay. Eku balu ot mipakanyan pa. Wa, atin kung kasalanan nia manyad kung tawad. Sorry talaga. Balu ku gang kanita pa etana talaga maging friends. Marakal ng melyari. Nung apanasakit daka, mas apanasakitan mu ku dating dati pa. buri ku ng mayari ini. Sorry talaga.
Good luck namu keka. may God bless you.
12:15:45 am 15.07.08
And his reply was:
G0odm0rning, sensya enaku mekapagreply nabengi..Ma2d2d nku knta... Ekuman buring malyari ini, pero palage ku ini ing dapat.. Balu ku madagul a madagul ing kasalanan ku keka, a bigger s0rry 4 u... Mas marakal nku kasalanan keka eh! ika n ring sinabi n buri munang mayari ini, hmm,,honestly, aku dn...though awkward man para kaku na itxt dka eku balu bt gagawan ku, pero siguru apin namu ini ing paralan dat wud set us free... I'm sorry and at d same tym i thank y0u 4 d thngs i've learned... Thank y0u kc nung ala ka, cguru aku p rn itang dating jeyen, ngeni s0ring maragul kc kylangan k png manasakit bayu ku mabyasa... Though meyari tamu mang makanini atleast with0ut leaving us blank, we're better... Balu ku masakit kalingwan ing eganagana, don't wori i'll do my part so us to 4get evrythng.. Last text kune keka ini, sana ituring muneng pr0per closure ini 4 us to m0ve on.. Don't wori God is g0od mkaganti k rn...heheü thank you very much! Pakigreet pala i ivan... tnxü Haay,, mkaba neh, ala nku asabi bsta fr0m d b0tt0m of my heart i'm so s0o sorry... Take care and God bLess... tsk..tsk..tsk.. ö^_^ö
10:19:17 am 15.07.08
And my last reply was:
atin kupang buring abalu mu. Pero sguru blu mu naman. Liguran dakang malambat. Eku blu bkt, bsta mknta.
Ngeni, goodluck namu. I wish for your happiness. Buri ku pg akakit dka ing aalala kumu dng msyang mem0ries.
Goodluck kekyung caril. Haha. O kung ninu man. Emu na palyaring mkpnskt kpa.
Mingat lagi. God bless you.
10:32:28 am 15.07.08
And that was it. This is the reality. The real turning point of my life. I've loved him for so long. But all I got were heartaches and of course unforgettable experiences. And I have to tell myself that this is the most favorable time to move on because I can no longer hope that maybe someday we can be together. Because we're sooo over now. The most beautiful and painful chapter of my life is now officially closed. :(
Well, I know I can get by. GO!
5 comments:
I admire you, ate Shei. :)
Kaya mo yan.
haha. kilala mo siya di ba gaea? ayun, matagal na un. di ko lang mabitawan. hehe.
Oo, ate. Kilala ko na. Naalala ko lang. Hm, di bale. Yung para sa'yo, parating na rin niyan. Balitaan mo ko. :P
Oh yes. Parating na siya. Hehe. At agad niyo ding malalaman. (:
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