big mistake

everything became blurred. i don't know what to do. or should i say i know what to do but don't know where to start. the pressures in school are normal. but a problem with some friends is just so new to me. i just can't take this all at once. i know I 've done something wrong. but they also have! why do i feel that I'm the villain here? i just can't help but feel super bad! i don't know how to fix this. my guy best friend and i were just a history now. why does it have to be like this? I'm hurting. i hope they know that. it all started last April 18-19,2008, Fontana. we're so excited about this summer getaway. we all had fun in that night. we didn't know something will happen that will shake our friendship. i also don't know how all of these misunderstandings became so chaotic. me against them. i feel so alone. --"that day was a mistake. it didn't bring us closer. it created a big gap between us. so much remorse. but we'll never be the same again. oh, dear. ;c"--