it's hard when you're twenty

I have a barkada. It’s called G4 or GO! GO! Galaxy Girls. Weird huh? Funny. It was conceived, if I recall it right, on August 18, 2005. It was Meteor Garden mania then and we have crushes in our room and we associate them with the F4. Meteor=Galaxy. Gets? Whatever. Basta, we’re the G4. We have this theme song pa nga written by Lea and Tin-an. It was done when we’re already First Year College. 

In high school, we’re inseparable. We do things together—eat, laugh, cry, fall in love (or infatuation, hehe), and everything you could think of. but of course problems are inevitable. we fought then forgave each other.

But college came. We are going the separate ways. I’m in BA, Tin-an and Lea took up Nursing, Em took up Architecture, while Erika took up IT, and the saddest of all, Sheena had to study in Manila for scholarship purposes. See, we have different courses, different schedules, and we met different friends. But we never gave up on our friendship. Sure, one could spend time with the other some time, but it’s rare and hard for us to have a grand reunion. Only in special occasion you will see us all together. 

And it became harder when each one of them had found their special someone. And it pained me when I’ve realized I am the only one who’s alone. 

I miss my girls. I miss hanging out with them. I don’t take it against them for finding their “someone”. I am happy for them. But it’s hard to be with them only nowadays. They always bring the boys with them. ): Now, Rik and I are the loveless in the group. And I’m desperately wanting to be with the other girls. Only them. 

But that’s hard. It seems impossible. I don’t know. 

But I’m not giving up. We have so many plans. Now that we’re in the next stage of our lives, we have to hold on and have faith on each other. I love my girls. And I will die loving them. And I know for sure we will be for each other for the next stages of our lives. We will be bridesmaids in each other’s wedding. We will be godmothers to each other’s children. 

I love my G4 so much. (: